LEADERSHIP .

today was one of the another amazing days in choir ; )
performed at Tropicana Club House . PAID . 250 ++ audience o.o
awesome . the crowd was okay until heal the world . nobody's paying attention . X)
but the feeling that i'm singing on stage , is damn awesome .
sigh , the place was damn huge . the houses there are like from another planet , the architecture and shit . :D well , with houses like that , that area is very high priced .

i came back home , tired . internally and externally . but no matter what , it was a great evening . :) photos will be uploaded later . in FACEBOOK :)

FAIL . DESPAIR .

sigh , i guess i have failed . but it's not a complete failure . She's still my sister .:) as well as other small girls :)
and , Bowie Seng , probably hates me right now , which is the last thing i ever want to happen . i'm so bored , sad , in despair , lonely .
school sucks , nothing ever works for me since , the day satria won . :(
anyway , these post sucks like shit . cause everything does . i thought everything would be fine . but it wasn't as i thought .

tomorrow's my next performance , in tropicana club and resort . this time i'll make sure someone take pictures and take a nice video :)

:) and :(

OMG , yesterday was one of my best days in my life , yet .
my first ever professional performance , may not be alone , but with the
Philharmonic Selangor Society . :)
After soundcheck , there's a capoeira act , after that a small workshop , i can' t believe i actually go there lansi !! i do hanstand , and all split , omg , i can't believe .
i was sweating like shittttt . > <
here are some pictres from yesterday :)

SATRIA . HERO .

All my high school years i've waited for this moment .
can't believe our house finally won . for the last 15 years , it's only blue house .
and i thought we'd be suckish this year . guess what, we were wrong .
we actually did great . and i've been wondering , HOW in the HELL blue house in SECOND place . they didn't win any . in fact . sigh , nevermind .
tomorrow is the day of jubilation .

hope to win olahragawan : ) three marvelous golds , one silver enough to put me through . :) i'm going to be the spotlight of the event : ) my last year , that's what counts :) make it count :)

TALENT .

heeeeeee . enough about rebecca .
i'm talking about talent , i'm thinking of trying to find something new to be shared with all my friends , so that we can exchange ideas and teach each other .
it's not easy to have 1000 skills at the same time . :)
learn learn learn .

one of my earliest talents , is just badminton . played it since i was 5 . i was always harassed , thrown at , by mother because i suck : (
but everything turned around , that was one of my natural talent : )
but of course , natural talent can't beat someone professional in a game .
but as i played the game on and on and on , it became boring, so that's why i always thought of new ways to hit back shots or retrieve hard ones .
for instance , doing a split to retrieve a drop ball . =)

the thing is , i do stuff to impress , to give entertainment . i don't care if i win or lose , important thing is , i know i'm awesome .
what else can i do ?
piano , guitar , viola , violin , er-hu , zhong luan , saxaphone and a lot of other instruments . breakdance , ''ballet'' , hip hop , traditional dances . sing , opera , normal , rock , chipmunk ( fav ) it's like almost everything right .
like badminton , i never learn professionlly like my friends do , i'll just have to experiment myself .

for example , i can actually play the same level of piano with 8th graders . well of course , they have perfect technique . SUCK LIKE SHIT . i hate techniques .
but i NEED it . i'm talking like i have a lot of shit here .
fine , a list of GENERAL THINGS I CAN DO .

1.Sing
2.Dance
3.Play music instruments .
4.Sports
5.Cooking
6.Baking
7.Mass Communication . ( A lot of languages )
that's generally , but if broken down , it's possible to reach about 500 stuffs .
i'm so glad GOD gave me this gift to be able to do almost everything : )
but even though , some certain people with this ability will use it in the wrong way .which i didnt :)

enought talk . erm , i've been sleeping , and watching reading YAKITATE JAPAN'S stuffs , since 6 . 25 a.m . :) i lve this anime . nothing much right ? well that's all la .

REBECCA .

REBECCA REBECCA REBECCA ,
is all i ever thought about today .
she's like the cutest angel i've every met :)
she have this smile, that makes my heart skips a beat whenever she does .
why am i feeling like this , is it normal ?
i felt this way before , but it's different in a way .
oh my god , i'm not making sense, and it's all because of the wonderful angel ,
REBECCA .
AH AH AH .. like the lovely roses of red , with the blur birds fly in the sky up high , with all the rainbow colours representing my love . for the one and only , . YEAH .
muahaha =)

nothing much happened today , went to school for taekwondo .

* interruption* omg omg omg omg omg omg , she replied . :)

oh yeah , erm , everybody's marching hard for the hari sukan stuff . i expect to see people come for SATRIA marching . and get marks for it . and go for the win . but sad , REBECCA not my house.: (
aiyo , everything about rebecca > < crazy adi .

gotta stop now , before i explode . REBECCA <3 :)

Amazing .

Satria is on the way to get first this year ,
Jaguh , the blue house who have been controlling the school's Sukan for almost 10 years , have finally reach to a point .
It's a big turnaround for Satria and Jaguh ,
We , Satria are the underdogs every year . while Jaguh , vice versa .
Almost every event Satria have a placing , first , second third or both .
FURTHERMORE , the Ketua , which is yours truly = ) won 4 GOLD medals , for my last year .
4 are , Javelin Throw , Shot Put , and Discus Throw , Tug Of War .
Tug of war , is won by disqualification . well , we would have satisfied getting runner up , but who am i to say NO to , GOLD ? DUH .

Next mission , Marching , Hari Sukan . If we Did everything right , definitely champion . i'm so proud to be the first Ketua to actually CHANGE things . DESTINY ? = )So , I pray , hardly . PLLEASEEEE once in a lifetime . SATRIA win .

sigh , even with all this happiness i'm still lonely , here in my dungeon of sorrow .
anyway , i got Hanna :) i got my sister : ) Jacqueline , love you guys :)

Should I ?

sigh , i'm not sure if i want to go to the camp , can't believe , my father actually got mad at me .

damn , sigh sigh . i don't know what should i do , should i go ? or should i study hard and show him ? show everybody ?

i'm just lonely , i don't have anything anymore .

i only got talent , and that's all i have .

if that's all it takes to get to win the dance competition , i'd do so , but unfortunately no ,

we have to have heart . will .

sigh , i thought today will be a fine day , but dad , turned it around .

i know what's his saying is true but not all of it , who said you need good education to be a USEFUL person . what am i now ? i'm more useful then half the people in the world , can't my parents see ? that i'm probably , more of a arts person , not some science guy shit . everybody destined for something . can't be perfect . if i'm good in studies , i'm perfect .

a perfect idiot . reading anime comics , wish me luck tomorrow !

A New Start .

Sigh , the old blog is filled with unwanted memories , but yet , there are memorable stuffs there , i could always go back and check .

a new start , a new beginning .

first , i can't believe i actually won , the lontar peluru .

heeee . rumah hijau GO . SATRIA can't believe . can't believe .

i don't know what else to write here . retarded .

anyway , anybody free 24th of april , should go to KOTA DAMANSARA COMMUNITY FOREST to see my first professional performance =)

that's all la for today . :)